December 2010
22 posts
things i actually enjoyed about christmas this...
waking up to spend the morning with only my mother
the fact that im now 18 but mum still writes ‘from santa’ on my presents
being able to cheer up my mum and make her laugh
sitting and opening presents with my whole family at grandmas house and actually being treated like an adult for once
my family actually being proud of my hsc results
half my family crying of joy when i tell...
those songs have play for the lonely souls who where singing along when it wasn’t enough just to hope, and to pray that their body’s somehow find the strength
and they all carry on they want nothing but to be better off, and ive hurt and ive aged, but I found it in my heart to believe ive been waiting for good news since you left a little piece of my hearts been pounding out of my chest...
im so scared
by everything in my life right now. but most of all my future. i went from having absolutely no future, to having a concrete plan for the next year. i could be earning, and living so much by the time im 19, and im terrified. im going back to school. and any other plans ive had has flown out the window. its heavy. its hectic.
and worst of all im pretty sure im going through it by myself, once...
im a mess, that’s the best way to describe...
Watchsonny you never disappoint.
the past week has been absolutely fucking insane. in all definitions of the word.
fuck.
“but now i never know the things to say to you
to help me prove that im still on...”
– all signs point to lauderdale
“when you fall ill be the only one who looks away”
– better off this way
last night i locked eyes with my best friend for what seemed like forever. and in that time there was absolutely no one looking back at me.
i really dont think ill ever be scared by anything else for as long as i live.
i just dont think i could give a fuck if i tried.
the sting of dissapointment is eternal.
my hands hurt. so much.
